TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT.....

Hey y'all!!!!!! I know, I know.....it has been too long. Ya girl got too much on her plate right now! Seriously....I had to get some me time in there:) BUT....all is well on my end....y'all seem to be doing wonderfully....I'm glad you missed me kinda ;) It shows me that you care!!
Now on to the goodies........

Pissed bc I was supposed to go and see Justin Timberlake in Bossier City next month, and this dude cancels!! WTF!! $82.00 a ticket and this fool cancels!!!! Luckily it was through ticket master so I get my money back......glad I didn't buy those bootleg tix!!(just joking)

SOOOOOOooooo, I am going to hit the gym(Jameil, I am nervous)....on Superbowl Sunday, my uncle asked me if I was pregnant!?!?!?!? Yeah, its about that time...gotta stop drinking my bud, and cosmos and get the Pilate's for my body....very nervous about this...VERY!! I hate exercising, although I know its going to make me healthy, and most of all, I won't look "pregnant" anymore:) Telling me I look pregnant, my momma told him that he was the one looking like a fake ass Devonte from Jodeci and to leave her baby alone....I was thick in the waist and cute in the face and that he was jealous....GONE MOMMA, let him know!!!!

My car is fixed...thank the LAWD!!! I cannot stand depending on other people....that is why I was so pissed about it....$800, I can handle that(in increments of course) but depending on other people to pick you up and drop you off....not a good look for ya girl...but I handled it and I am back in buisness...BROKE....but back in business:)

Can I have an 8th grade moment?? This man to my left....Brian White(Stomp the Yard, Family Stone, Mr. 3000) has got to be one of the finest mofo's that ever was.....I mean, I get giddy when I see him...and he isn't even feasible...I am 23 people...23!!!!!!!!! You know when you and you girlfriends would have sleepovers and she could have this guy, you had dibs on one, and the other.....well he is mine!!! Man..oh man!!

Dating a guy, I dunno bout him though.....what is it with guys from the north?? He is from Chicago.....kinda quiet. And y'all don't know me very well, I am VERY extroverted....I talk ALOT around him and I feel very very annoying. He persist to tell me that he loves it when I talk, and he promises that he would tell me if I talked too much, but when I ask him a question, I expect for an elaborate answer.....that is how you get to know a person right?? I just want to make sure, bc ya girl been out the game for a while, I'm not great at dating, and no one dates anymore!!!!! Its more like "wanna watch a movie", or "wanna come over for dinner".....no going out?? Kinda weird, but I'll take it....he's nice, and he seems to think I am the most gorgeous thing ever....so he's good...I'll keep you informed...

Other than that...how y'all been??

KEEPING MY COMPOSURE......

Pissed off today! This is the end of the week, Friday, TGIF! My car, which I never really had any technical problems with, decides to not start, again, today. Let me start from the beginning.....

We have had not so good week here in Dallas in terms of weather. Quite frankly, it scared me a little bit. We hit below freezing everyday this week, it snowed, it iced over, and I had to be at work everyday.....didn't matter. It freaked me out on Tues evening when I got off work how cold it was, bc the temperature did a gigantuous drop from Tue. afternoon into Tue. night, something like 21 degrees. I knew my car wasn't going to cooperate with the weather in terms of warming up...it was just too cold. So I crank my car up and it coughed, and stammered a little, and was fine. Then when I started driving to dinner to meet my girls, that is when I thought I was staring death in the face. My RPM's started revving by themselves, my car was jerking and spitting, lights were going on and off, then it died. I was so scared ya'll....but I kept my composure! I started it up again, called my mom and dad, let them know what was going on, and drove home, with the intent to take my car to the shop the next morning.

I was awaken by my mothers ring tone at 7:20 am the next morning, when I groggily answered, all I heard was "Look outside". When I did, it was white....a blanket of snow covered the grass, road, roof, everything. I was heated....my car was going to have to wait.

Do you know how it feels to be without a car?? To depend on people to have to pick you up and take you home? It makes me grateful and appreciative that I have the ability to do this on my own everyday. I hate asking people for rides, as much as they are okay with doing it, bc I do it for people, but I don't like being in the situation myself. It just doesn't feel right. Anywho......

So I take my car in and do you know how much it is going to cost to get fixed $800!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If you could see my face when they said that......you would've been like "GIRL PICK YO MOUTH UP OFF THE FLOOR".... I wanted to cry. But again, I kept my composure, dialed Mom's number, and pleaded for them to help me. Without hesitation, they told me to tell the mechanic to go ahead, but made sure that I have to pay them back before tax season is over. (Getting credit from your parents, alot easier than putting something on a credit card) Love my parents...they help us WHENEVER we are in need....

So ya girl is looking for a bus pass....naw! I'm playin, I got some good friends who are making sure that I get to work okay, and making sure that I get home fine. Mom is keeping tabs with the mechanic while I am at work, SOOOOOO all is well. My face is fixed...cuz I had "stankface" for about 2 hours about my car!! Freakin weather....

P.S.~Stalkerboy offered me a mechanic!! I do not need no bootleg a$$ dude to fix my car for a 40oz and a pack of kools?!?!?! I told that fool to the left to the left, you must not know bout me! KEPT MY COMPOSURE THOUGH!!!

Jennifer Hudson Wins Golden Globe

Sorry fam....I haven't been compelled to post....BUT this happened last night and I was overly excited....I will post pix of the holidays really soon...just haven't gotten on here in a while!! Be Easy ya'll!!

AULD LANG SYNE.....what the hell???

Ooooooooooweeeee!! Can I just say that this year has flown by! It is so crazy to me that we will be bringing in the New Year on Sunday!! Crazy days......
How was every ones X-mas!? Wonderful I hope! Santa was good to me! (I love my mom and pop) Even though I am 23, I still get like a giddy little kid once it comes time to open up the presents on Xmas morning!! My mom and dad still get me like 10 things every Xmas....its a sweet deal. Seriously! Mom got me a bunch of bath and body works(Sensual Amber and Japanese Cherry Blossom are what that is!!) and Dad convinced her to get me one of those docks for your ipod where you can just sit it on there and it plays it for you through the radio(Jamiel, you gotta get one if you don't yet, love it!!). I also got some new shox, and a plethora of other cool things that I would love to list, but I don't feel like it!
All in all my Xmas was amazing!! The best part of it all was seeing my family, which due to work, I haven't seen since last Xmas! My family is my backbone, they always bring me back to reality! Lets just say that my family is one of ghetto persuasion:) Like I said in my first post, on holidays you have 5 generations under one roof, starting with my Great Grandmother, down to my 2 year old cousin Niyah**i have a young family**. You got Drunk Uncles Larry and Asa, who sometimes forget that I am their niece....lets just say there were some tight hugs that night(do NOT act like you don't have that uncle). Niyah, who is 2 mind you, WALKED IT OUT!! OMG! She was getting it too ya'll....hard. There was wine and beer flowing, food stayed on the table, and laughs were ample! Miss them already! I gotta start spending more time with my family like that......

This weekend is the last weekend I will drink for a while, my liver is kicking my ass right now I know! 3 weekends in a row....drinking! I need to stop....AA here I come! Joking:) For real though, I start training for my marathon next month, and I need to let it go! It has been nice eating and drinking with no remorse, but the fun stops Jan 7th....wish me luck! I promise I will get a pic up of my dress(Ms. Peaches) soon! I am at work, so no uploading personal pix today:(

Have ya'll seen Dreamgirls yet? FABULOUS......go see it if you hadn't. People keep telling me I look like J-Hud.....I don't know.....Mom says we favor, but we don't look that much alike, I think its the lips, the curves and the slight gap....yeah that has to be it! You know people, but she is a pretty girl, so I'll take it!! If you've seen it let me know what you think....all I have to say is "And I am telling you!!!" Girl can sing!!! Be easy ya'll, Happy New Year!!! DON'T DRINK AND DRIVE!!!!

LAST BATCH OF XMAS PARTIES

Last weekend was the beginning and this weekend is the last! I have been to more Xmas parties this year than ever!! My avatar reflects somewhat what I will look like this weekend.....I will post a pic(minus my full face) so that you can see the dress that I am wearing on Friday because it is F-A-B-U-L-O-U-S!! Eggnog and drunken Xmas carols.....oh what joy!! I won't be near a computer for the next couple of days so my best wishes go out to you and yours for Christmas. Enjoy these days while you can and do not take for granted what you have!! Pray for our troops and pray for the families that are missing a family member, and pray for your family. Much Love and Happy Holidays!!

LETTING IT GO.....

Can you honestly believe that Christmas is almost a week away. I swear by some crazy force the years have gotten shorter and we don't even know it. I haven't done not a narrit drop of Xmas shopping. How horrible is that??? I have 2 Xmas parties to attend, and I haven't even gotten a dress....what am I doing!!!! I need to get on the ball...this isn't working! The thing is though, I am not at all stressed....I'm like, I know what I'm getting......I know where to go, I'm good. Watch, I get out there and I get trampled.....wish me luck this weekend.

On another note, I let him go today. I am proud of myself. The guy that I have loved for the past 8 years, I let him go. His baby was born a couple days ago. Pics are up on myspace, facebook, and any other social foyer.....like I said we have TONS of mutual friends. Saw the pics...I knew he'd make a good dad! But my heart let it go today....I cannot live my life the way I was living it. I've missed out on so many good things in hopes of some sort reconciliation between us, friends. And to see him happy reassures me that it can only get better for me. I have to just live and hope that one day I can love someone the way I loved him. Until then, I will give it my all and stop being so guarded with my heart. I';m proud of myself, believe me when you see the love of your life with a new baby, all proud and happy, one could easily freak out! I got shaky, my stomach fluttered a little, then after that, I was content, like a calm came over me. I knew I had to just let it go.....wish him the best and hope that he can be one hell of a father...

Almost forgot to let ya'll know, me and the predator had words!!!!!!! I went left field on him. He pushed me to the limit and I got ugly. Not really, but kind of. He caught me on one of those days, you know when you don't want to be touched, bothered, or talked to for a while. Now I don't come into work in a bad mood often, so if I am not in the mood, people know. I'll speak, bc not speaking to the people you sit by is just rude, but if I spoke to you once there is no need for you to stick out your hand to give me a high five........for nothing. I didn't do anything to deserve a high five, and if you would have seen the look on my face when I came I came in, you would want to give me a high five. Then he sends me this email saying I hurt his feelings bc I told him no to his high five. What the hell are we 3rd graders? I was done at that point and told him how he needed to grow up and stop taking the things that I do so personally. He told me it was bc he thought we were good friends...bruh your not even out of your probationary period yet....me and you good friends..ur uh ...uh...NO! I think I hurt his feelings then for real, but I didn't care....I'm sick of his stalkerish tendencies. You gotta be careful with mofo's like that because he could take one thing the wrong way, next thing you know you'll be reading about me in the news. I had to let him have it, then let it go.....man!! My week has been too eventful for words.....ya'll be easy!!

QUITE INTERESTING TO SAY THE LEAST-Thx Jameil

The Rules:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool.

Opening Credits: "MY LOVE" Justin Timberlake~ Huh, really. Funny bc I don't have a man.....but I am looking. When I love, I love hard, so I guess this suits.....

Waking Up: "Get Up" Ciara~ Get yo ass up girl!! This is a good song to wake up to though, really upbeat.

First Day At School: "Sexy" Bella~ In high school, I was always known as the sexy, goofy, big smile girl. I was voted on the court all 4 years... so this is a good match...next!!

Falling In Love: "Live In The Sky" T.I.~ Life's up and downs, they come and go....
yeah, sounds about right.

Fight Song: "Shorty Like Mine" Bow Wow~ I dunno....this is kinda weird. I was hoping hit that b***h with a bottle came on. Not so much....

Breaking Up: "Bad Habit" Destiny's Child~ Really!!! This is the story of my life...listen to this song, and you will know why I am the way I am...damn. I get teary eyed EVERY time i hear this song...NEXT!!!

Prom: "Thriller" Michael Jackson~ This would be my prom song. We had fun that night...this song is fun so there ya go...

Life is Good: "Ring the alarm" Beyonce~ I can be crazy sometimes, but not this crazy, take him girl, he wasn't that great and I can do bad by myself....

Mental Breakdown: "This Body" Janet Jackson~ She is comparing herself to a magazine cover...yeah I would prolly have a mental breakdown about this....

Driving: "Give it To Momma" Beyonce~ Um...speaks for itself, (so if you want you got the green light!)

Flashback: "Sin Wagon" Dixie Chicks~ This reminds me of my freshman year with my best friend. This is when my music selection started to diverse...

Getting Back Together:"Caught Up" Usher~ Yeah, everytime we got back together, I knew I was getting caught up....shouldn've did it, but I did....dummy me!!

Wedding: "Push it To the Limit" Rick Ross~ What the hell?? I don't know about this one....that is one ghetto wedding!

Birth of Child:"Smooth Criminal" Michael Jackson~ Considering this is the birth of my CHILD, I am very uncomfortable with Michael singing the song....

Final Battle:"Steller" Incubus~ Oh this is one of my FAV songs....I could listen to this before I do battle....puts some things in perspective.

Funeral Song: "Moneymaker" Ludacris~ Yeah!! Let it be a party...don't cry over me...I'll see you on the other side:)

End Credits: "Chariot" Gavin De Graw~ What happend to this dude?? Yeah, this fits...its a perfect song when the credits roll!

**Musical Shares
1. How does the world see me? "Pump it" BEP~ Turn up the radio, blast the stereo lound!! Thats me!! Give me music and I will be happy!!
2. Will I have a happy life? "Shoulder Lean" Young Dro~ Oh No!! Does this mean I will be leaning on others...hell no! Not gonna happen!
4. Do people secretly lust after me? "Bring em Out" T.I.~ Yeah!! Bring em out if they do...show your face;)
5. How can I make myself happy? "One Shot" Danity Kane~ All I got is one shot, get it right the first time and get up!
6. What should I do with my life? "I'm Real" Jennifer Lopez~ ALREADY!! That's me, be real and love life...
7. What is some good advice for me? "Give it up Or Let Me Go" Dixie Chicks~ Yeah, I need to do that...
8. How will I be remembered? "Love to Love" Janet Jackson~ I do love to love. Hard.
9. What is my signature dancing song? "Nolia Clap" Juvenille~ This would be something that I dance to...dont' know about a signature dance song....
10. What do I think my current theme song is? "Long way To Go" Cassie~ This is dead on! I do have a long way to go, I'm only 23 people....got a lot more living to do:)
11. What does everyone else think my current theme song is?"My Humps" BEP~ I got a lot of junk in my trunk. And my humps up top are not discreet, so I can co-sign for my itunes with this one.
12. What song will play at my funeral? "Sexyback" JT~ I'll do it now, and till the day I day, I will bring SexyBack in my casket!! That is hot!!
13. What type of women (men, since I'm a woman) do I like? "Lost yo Mind" Beyonce~ This is a track that didn't make it to Bday....but I don't want no crazy dude...too much drama!! What the mess!! come on itunes!!
14. What is my day going to be like? "Confessions" Usher~ That is what I am doing with ya'll...so good deal itunes!! Toodles for now!!;)