Tuesday, November 04, 2008
WORDS DO NO JUSTICE....
Tears are flowing and I cannot stop being emotional. Do you know what just happened? Do you understand the magnitude of what just happened. CHANGE just happened and we made it happen. Every time I think about the history that I just witnessed, every time I think about the story that I will tell my children, every time I think about my grandma not being able to vote, every time I think about Dr. King, every time I think about Malcom, my heart gets elated. We did it.......god is so amazing. Now we just have to continue to pray for President Obama, his family, their well being, their safety. Everyone isn't going to be happy about this. But I am, and my faith in my LORD will ease any inferior feeling that I feel about what is going to go on for the next 4 years. Barack Obama is my president. Barack, a BLACK man, is my president!! God is soooo amazing.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Pink - Dear Mr President Live In Wembley - I'm Not Dead Tour
i LOVE this song and I am so feeling it right now....
Friday, April 04, 2008
THINGS I CAN'T STOP THINKING BOUT...
BLEEDING LOVE by LEONA LEWIS-
This song is in my head at every point in the day and as much as I love it; it is starting to where me thin. She is everywhere right now, and people are eating it up. I've heard some tracks from her album and she has a nice voice, but nothing amazingly jaw dropping ya know. But that damn song is in my head....."keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love...." UGH!!! But i love it though...
ST LOUIS-
He makes my head spin....seriously. When I think about him I get butterflies. Its a good feeling to have after all the BS that has been going on in my man department. Having dinner with him tonight, and if you have Tamia's album, put it on "Sitting on the Job"....cuz that's what ya girl is going right this moment.
AMERICAS NEXT TOP MODEL-
I love this show, and usually its a bit vain of me, but I'm like I can do that!! I'll be the plus size model (although there plus size girls don't look plus size AT ALL to me). But if you are watching this season, please tell me why they cut Stacy Ann's hair like this?? Hum?? No one? Bc I couldn't do that....not that. She is such a cute girl....but her hair is messing me up. I hate that...
GAS PRICES-
I don't want to think about them....lawd knows I don't. It's $3.25 a gallon here and that makes me sick to my stomach. I can't talk about it anymore....
that's it. ~xoxo~Kay
This song is in my head at every point in the day and as much as I love it; it is starting to where me thin. She is everywhere right now, and people are eating it up. I've heard some tracks from her album and she has a nice voice, but nothing amazingly jaw dropping ya know. But that damn song is in my head....."keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love...." UGH!!! But i love it though...
ST LOUIS-
He makes my head spin....seriously. When I think about him I get butterflies. Its a good feeling to have after all the BS that has been going on in my man department. Having dinner with him tonight, and if you have Tamia's album, put it on "Sitting on the Job"....cuz that's what ya girl is going right this moment.
AMERICAS NEXT TOP MODEL-
I love this show, and usually its a bit vain of me, but I'm like I can do that!! I'll be the plus size model (although there plus size girls don't look plus size AT ALL to me). But if you are watching this season, please tell me why they cut Stacy Ann's hair like this?? Hum?? No one? Bc I couldn't do that....not that. She is such a cute girl....but her hair is messing me up. I hate that...
GAS PRICES-
I don't want to think about them....lawd knows I don't. It's $3.25 a gallon here and that makes me sick to my stomach. I can't talk about it anymore....
that's it. ~xoxo~Kay
Thursday, April 03, 2008
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
YOU CAN FIND ME IN ST. LOUIS!!!
How ya'll been? I already know, I don't have to ask. Yes, I have been lurking on your blogs when I get some free time....and yes, I know I haven't commented, but that's neither here nor there. Just know that I STILL and ALWAYS will have love for my blog family. Even though there aren't that many of ya'll, but yet and still.
So the happenings of my life haven't changed much at all since I've been MIA for a little while. The whole debacle with the post before this one has been cleared up. Thank the Lord for that bc the police were about to be involved. He almost went stalker on me, he actually just got the hint not to call my phone anymore. My roommate had to get involved, bc she was sick of him trying to contact me and it was becoming a stressful situation for me and her. Scary actually bc of all the things that have been going on recently with girls turning up dead....I actually started to watch my back a little more. I was on high alert, level orange, if you will. He just wasn't getting the fact that we didn't need to be in contact with each other anymore, and as much as I hate to admit it, I jumped into something I HAD NO BUSINESS jumping into so fast. Especially after I found out he lost his job. I can sit here till I'm blue in the face, but when someone who is grown can't provide for themselves, they have no business trying to be in a relationship. (that's if your not married) But like I said that situation is over...and my heart isn't as heavy anymore.
Moving on....
So today I am amped bc "St. Louis" is coming into town. I don't think I told you guys about him.
I met him at a Xmas eve party that we had at our apartment for close friends. He came with a Friend who was invited by our soon to be 3rd roommate, who I will let you know about in just a bit.
When I met him, it wasn't an instant connection. He had on a hoodie, and he showed up at my door with beer....I didn't know who he was, but that was not cute at all to me, so I didn't really give him a 2nd glance. No one at the party did actually....until we started playing Pictionary, and he took off his jacket. Which caught every female (and a couple of males) off guard. He was BEAUTIFUL. The kind of beautiful that is very un-noticed by many, but so noticeable when your in an intimate setting like our party (get together). I wasn't trying to even go there though...bc I had just broken things off with AJ, and in my mind I was done for a while. I didn't want to be that girl...but the minute we made eye contact again....I was DONE. The party was over around 2pm....he remained behind with his friend and helped my roommates and I clean up, and we talked about EVERYTHING under the sun for the next 4 hours. Didn't once try anything... just that instant connection through communication. And for the remainder of the time that he was here...we spent alot of time together, and got to know each other better. Spent Xmas and New Years together. He was my kiss. And he went back to St. Louis on the 3rd. He is a teacher there. We have been in constant contact with each other since that day, and this morning he called me while he was on the plane(to my surprise) and told me he was coming home:)!!!!!!! ULTRA EXCITED!!
My current roommates brother is moving to VA for his job with his family. They just had a house built here in Dallas, and they don't want to sell right now, so they are letting us rent it while they are away. Cool right? So we needed a 3rd roomie, and the girl that is moving with us has been both our friends for about 3 years now. She is amazing and I can't wait to move in with her. Plus side- she will be a teacher as well!! YAHOO!!!
What else....um I'm thinking about doing teach for America. If ANYONE has any input on this let me know....I heard it was an amazing program. Sounds right up my alley actually.
Well, I just wanted to give you a lil something, let you guys know I was alive. Going back on the clock now....love you all!!
So the happenings of my life haven't changed much at all since I've been MIA for a little while. The whole debacle with the post before this one has been cleared up. Thank the Lord for that bc the police were about to be involved. He almost went stalker on me, he actually just got the hint not to call my phone anymore. My roommate had to get involved, bc she was sick of him trying to contact me and it was becoming a stressful situation for me and her. Scary actually bc of all the things that have been going on recently with girls turning up dead....I actually started to watch my back a little more. I was on high alert, level orange, if you will. He just wasn't getting the fact that we didn't need to be in contact with each other anymore, and as much as I hate to admit it, I jumped into something I HAD NO BUSINESS jumping into so fast. Especially after I found out he lost his job. I can sit here till I'm blue in the face, but when someone who is grown can't provide for themselves, they have no business trying to be in a relationship. (that's if your not married) But like I said that situation is over...and my heart isn't as heavy anymore.
Moving on....
So today I am amped bc "St. Louis" is coming into town. I don't think I told you guys about him.
I met him at a Xmas eve party that we had at our apartment for close friends. He came with a Friend who was invited by our soon to be 3rd roommate, who I will let you know about in just a bit.
When I met him, it wasn't an instant connection. He had on a hoodie, and he showed up at my door with beer....I didn't know who he was, but that was not cute at all to me, so I didn't really give him a 2nd glance. No one at the party did actually....until we started playing Pictionary, and he took off his jacket. Which caught every female (and a couple of males) off guard. He was BEAUTIFUL. The kind of beautiful that is very un-noticed by many, but so noticeable when your in an intimate setting like our party (get together). I wasn't trying to even go there though...bc I had just broken things off with AJ, and in my mind I was done for a while. I didn't want to be that girl...but the minute we made eye contact again....I was DONE. The party was over around 2pm....he remained behind with his friend and helped my roommates and I clean up, and we talked about EVERYTHING under the sun for the next 4 hours. Didn't once try anything... just that instant connection through communication. And for the remainder of the time that he was here...we spent alot of time together, and got to know each other better. Spent Xmas and New Years together. He was my kiss. And he went back to St. Louis on the 3rd. He is a teacher there. We have been in constant contact with each other since that day, and this morning he called me while he was on the plane(to my surprise) and told me he was coming home:)!!!!!!! ULTRA EXCITED!!
My current roommates brother is moving to VA for his job with his family. They just had a house built here in Dallas, and they don't want to sell right now, so they are letting us rent it while they are away. Cool right? So we needed a 3rd roomie, and the girl that is moving with us has been both our friends for about 3 years now. She is amazing and I can't wait to move in with her. Plus side- she will be a teacher as well!! YAHOO!!!
What else....um I'm thinking about doing teach for America. If ANYONE has any input on this let me know....I heard it was an amazing program. Sounds right up my alley actually.
Well, I just wanted to give you a lil something, let you guys know I was alive. Going back on the clock now....love you all!!
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
SINCE I'VE BEEN AWAY...
I miss you...I really do. This is just one of the things that I need to get off my chest...(has lots of cursing, sorry in advance.)****this is from my myspace blog...
FLIES AND SHIT.....**updated** Current mood: pissed off Category: bout to mess some shit up Romance and Relationships
I don't know how I am supposed to feel about this situation. One part of me wants to act out, mess some shit up, mess your life up. Another part of me just says f**k it. Your not worth it and you never have been. What gives you the audacity to say the things that you have said to me?!?! I was nothing but good in your life, and to this day you still can't say anything bad about me. "Thanks for nothing at all....."... I'm SOOOO confused. You STILL don't realize everything that I did for you, do you? I brought my standards down to a level that they shouldn've ever been brought down to. I turned a blind eye to things bc I thought that you were going to try to be better. You claim you tried, but there was never any real evidence of that happening, only what you "say" was going on. I only have your word to go on, and as of last week, I don't know if that is valid anymore. I just don't understand how someone could be so incompetant to things that are right under their noses. Not only do you not understand other people's point of views, you refuse to admit fault in any situation, whether it be minor or major, you always have a defense ready to prove your side is right. I knew that shit was shady, I just gave you the benefit of the doubt and that shit didn't do me any good. I WASTED gas, time, sanity, respect and all kinds of other things for you. I went into my purse to make to make sure your ass was ok. I didn't have to do that, but I did. Because I am THAT TYPE OF GIRL... I should be the one telling you Thanks for nothing....not the other way. Bc LORD knows that I tried with your ass. AND the sad part is, you can't deny that, no matter how much you try. I was the best thing that ever happened to you. I KNOW THAT IS FACT......no disrespect to any of the other women that you were with, but I know that i am the classiest, jazziest, most competant, faithful, intellegent, beautiful, caring person that you will ever have the pleasure of dating. You had a real shot, but you messed that up with your content for life at this moment. You messed that up with your failed attempts to understand. You messed that up when you lied about trying to talk to my friend. SO....yeah, your DAMN right I am moving on, and I make no apologies about that. After this I am done...and I ususally end relationships on a friendly basis. See how you got me, out of character......and I'm not doing that shit no more. I refuse....deal with it. Move on....and I'm out this bitch.
ps~ and by the way, you still owe me for that time I paid your phone bill.
he sent me this:
FLIES AND SHIT ...TRUTH AND LIES. IS YOU ROLLIN? YEAH, YOU MIGHT BE. IT'S UNDERSTANDABLE THAT YOU ARE A LIL TESTY ABOUT THE WAY ALL THIS WENT DOWN. I CAN'T BLAME YOU. KUDOS TO YOU FOR BEING ALL THAT YOU WERE AND ARE ...YOU ARE WOMAN, A FINE PIECE OF WORK.YOU WOULDN'T KNOW THE TRUTH IF GOD HIMSELF CAME DOWN AND TOLD IT TO YOU. I AM, WITHOUT A SHADOW OF A DOUBT THE REALIST NIGGA YOU HAVE EVER COME IN CONTACT WITH. YOU WANNA AIR SHIT OUT AND TOOT YOUR HORN ...GO HEAD. I CAN'T KNOCK YOU ONE BIT. I'VE ONLY BEEN SINCERE, HONEST, AND LOVING TO YOU SO. IF YOU GET PLEASURE OUT OF KNOCKING A NIGGA FOR TRYING WHEN ALL YOU SAY YOU HAVE IS HIS WORD ...ALL I'VE HAD WAS MY WORD. AS FOR THE WHOLE PHONE THING: YOU'RE WELCOME. IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT, YOU'RE TOOTING MY HORN AS WELL. I BROUGHT YOU OUT OF CHACTER, HAD YOU DOING THING YOU SAID YOU WOULDN'T. I AM STILL ...[THEBESTNEVAHAD]. DON'T TRY TO PLAY ME ALL UP ON MYSPACE, I'VE HAD NOTHING BUT LOVE FOR YOU AND STILL DO AND WILL.THE TRUEST SHIT I EVER WROTE: I'LL TAKE YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK IF YOU LIKE,TO THE VERGE OF BLISS AND THE MEDIAN OF FOREVER AND ALWAYS.I'LL TAKE EVERY MOMENT SPENT WITH YOU AND PRESERVE IT IN A JAR,OPENING IT ONLY FOR A SNIFF WHEN YOU HAVE GONE TOO FAR.I'LL TAKE YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK IF YOU LIKE,LIKE A STORY NEVER ENDING, A NEWLY FOUND SALVATION IN LIFE.THE VERGE OF BLISS AND THE MEDIAN OF FOREVER AND ALWAYS, NEVER OUT OF REACH.SEEK AND DESTROY HURT AND PAIN WITH A HEART FELT SECURITY BREECH.I'LL TAKE YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK IF YOU'LL JUST HAVE ME BE...YOUR NOW... YOUR FOREVER... YOUR US... YOUR WE.
i responded to him:
IN RESPONSE TO THE MOST RIDICULOUS PIECE OF MESS I HAVE EVER READ IN MY LIFE:
You want me to vent....here you go. YOU ARE A JOKE!!!!!I have held this shit in for as long as I can, at this point I really don't give a shit if this hurts your feelings or not. Obviously no one has had the nerve enough to let you know what a fuck up you are. Yes I may have been swept up in your "word". And yes, I must have been blindsided by loneliness, but all that shit is out the window at this point. I DON'T GIVE A SHIT if you love me still, you can take yourself to the moon and back, and you can spend all your tommorrows alone for all I care. You don't realize what you are! You don't Avery, and I dont' feel sorry for you anymore, i'm to the point to where i'm just disgusted by your lifestyle. You live your life with this fucked up attitude of "sitting and waiting." What grown man does that?? What example are you setting as a so called man to ALL of your childeren? Your the statistic that they base african american males on...and everyone knows those are some shitty ass statistics. Why would you be proud of that? What glamour is in that? You HATE it when people downplay your masculinity, but why? Its fact...and what I wrote was fact. And everything that every person who read my blog says...is fact. The reason why you feel the need to question why we arent' together is beyond me. I get it though--->" KUDOS TO YOU FOR BEING ALL THAT YOU WERE AND ARE ...YOU ARE WOMAN, A FINE PIECE OF WORK." You damn right....the best that you'll ever get. You chalk this up to the incident that happened last week. Tell me something, why don't you get the fact that that is just the tip of the iceberg. You keep lying to me about that situation....you can say you didn't mean this or that, but I KNOW what went down. AND that doesn't even matter..your right you took me out of character...and you made me do shit that I wouldn't normally do..BUT KNOW THIS.I had you and your not the "BEST I EVER HAD"....not even close. You know how men tell women all the things they want to hear...well checkmate Avery. When I told you the things that I told you about us, it was under pre-tenses that have come to no avail. You have nothing...NOTHING. You say you love me right?? Then why would you feel the need to toot your own horn about making me do things that I would never do?? Bringing me out of character?? What "best and better than most" man you know does that? Don't worry, i'll wait..........didn't think so. Like you said, you have nothing on me bro. You know what a good woman I am. You know that I reached into the depths of my heart for you, all for this shit to play out the way that it did. I take full responsibility for the shit. I should've know not to get involved with you. I thought that I was a stronger woman....and I am because most females...and when I say that I am speaking of true queens of my caliber; people who have an education, have things going for themselves, have their shit together; wouldn't have given your ass a 2nd glance. BUT I DID. And you want to sit up here and try to play me....like I'm fucking willy foo foo or somebody. GET THE HELL OUTTA HERE. " -------YOU THINK YOU HAVE A BETTER JUDGE OF PEOPLE. THAT'S YA GIRL, YOU SPOSE TO TAKE HER SIDE. WHAT IT BOILS DOWN TO IS THAT NONE OF US REALLY KNEW ONE ANOTHER AND WAS MISLEAD. LOWERED STANDARDS ...lol MY ASS""
this doesn't even make since....so i'm not going to even dignify it with an answer. We have been broken up for quite sometime now..so what I do with me, myself, and I is not really of any intrest to you now is it. I could be ugly and tell you that HE is the best I ever had....but that would be below that belt now wouldn't it.
What I posted was something that was meant for you to see...it wasn't done in spite, it wasn't done to "put you on blast" either. Again, everything that I said is FACT. It was done so that you could FINALLY get what I have been trying to tell you for a really long time now. But again, you FAIL to understand that. You continue to try and justify your situation and that is the MAIN reason why you don't need to contact me anymore. Friends we'll never be, lovers is out the window, and this way you can concentrate on what it is that you do...
"The unemployment rate for young African American men is over twice the rate for young white, Hispanic and Asian men (Fig. 3). In addition, fewer African American men between the ages of 16 and 29 are in the labor force compared to white, Hispanic and Asian men in the same age group. Over 20% of young African American men live in poverty compared to 18% of Hispanic..."
Oh and best believe that everyone will see what you have to say...
FLIES AND SHIT.....**updated** Current mood: pissed off Category: bout to mess some shit up Romance and Relationships
I don't know how I am supposed to feel about this situation. One part of me wants to act out, mess some shit up, mess your life up. Another part of me just says f**k it. Your not worth it and you never have been. What gives you the audacity to say the things that you have said to me?!?! I was nothing but good in your life, and to this day you still can't say anything bad about me. "Thanks for nothing at all....."... I'm SOOOO confused. You STILL don't realize everything that I did for you, do you? I brought my standards down to a level that they shouldn've ever been brought down to. I turned a blind eye to things bc I thought that you were going to try to be better. You claim you tried, but there was never any real evidence of that happening, only what you "say" was going on. I only have your word to go on, and as of last week, I don't know if that is valid anymore. I just don't understand how someone could be so incompetant to things that are right under their noses. Not only do you not understand other people's point of views, you refuse to admit fault in any situation, whether it be minor or major, you always have a defense ready to prove your side is right. I knew that shit was shady, I just gave you the benefit of the doubt and that shit didn't do me any good. I WASTED gas, time, sanity, respect and all kinds of other things for you. I went into my purse to make to make sure your ass was ok. I didn't have to do that, but I did. Because I am THAT TYPE OF GIRL... I should be the one telling you Thanks for nothing....not the other way. Bc LORD knows that I tried with your ass. AND the sad part is, you can't deny that, no matter how much you try. I was the best thing that ever happened to you. I KNOW THAT IS FACT......no disrespect to any of the other women that you were with, but I know that i am the classiest, jazziest, most competant, faithful, intellegent, beautiful, caring person that you will ever have the pleasure of dating. You had a real shot, but you messed that up with your content for life at this moment. You messed that up with your failed attempts to understand. You messed that up when you lied about trying to talk to my friend. SO....yeah, your DAMN right I am moving on, and I make no apologies about that. After this I am done...and I ususally end relationships on a friendly basis. See how you got me, out of character......and I'm not doing that shit no more. I refuse....deal with it. Move on....and I'm out this bitch.
ps~ and by the way, you still owe me for that time I paid your phone bill.
he sent me this:
FLIES AND SHIT ...TRUTH AND LIES. IS YOU ROLLIN? YEAH, YOU MIGHT BE. IT'S UNDERSTANDABLE THAT YOU ARE A LIL TESTY ABOUT THE WAY ALL THIS WENT DOWN. I CAN'T BLAME YOU. KUDOS TO YOU FOR BEING ALL THAT YOU WERE AND ARE ...YOU ARE WOMAN, A FINE PIECE OF WORK.YOU WOULDN'T KNOW THE TRUTH IF GOD HIMSELF CAME DOWN AND TOLD IT TO YOU. I AM, WITHOUT A SHADOW OF A DOUBT THE REALIST NIGGA YOU HAVE EVER COME IN CONTACT WITH. YOU WANNA AIR SHIT OUT AND TOOT YOUR HORN ...GO HEAD. I CAN'T KNOCK YOU ONE BIT. I'VE ONLY BEEN SINCERE, HONEST, AND LOVING TO YOU SO. IF YOU GET PLEASURE OUT OF KNOCKING A NIGGA FOR TRYING WHEN ALL YOU SAY YOU HAVE IS HIS WORD ...ALL I'VE HAD WAS MY WORD. AS FOR THE WHOLE PHONE THING: YOU'RE WELCOME. IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT, YOU'RE TOOTING MY HORN AS WELL. I BROUGHT YOU OUT OF CHACTER, HAD YOU DOING THING YOU SAID YOU WOULDN'T. I AM STILL ...[THEBESTNEVAHAD]. DON'T TRY TO PLAY ME ALL UP ON MYSPACE, I'VE HAD NOTHING BUT LOVE FOR YOU AND STILL DO AND WILL.THE TRUEST SHIT I EVER WROTE: I'LL TAKE YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK IF YOU LIKE,TO THE VERGE OF BLISS AND THE MEDIAN OF FOREVER AND ALWAYS.I'LL TAKE EVERY MOMENT SPENT WITH YOU AND PRESERVE IT IN A JAR,OPENING IT ONLY FOR A SNIFF WHEN YOU HAVE GONE TOO FAR.I'LL TAKE YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK IF YOU LIKE,LIKE A STORY NEVER ENDING, A NEWLY FOUND SALVATION IN LIFE.THE VERGE OF BLISS AND THE MEDIAN OF FOREVER AND ALWAYS, NEVER OUT OF REACH.SEEK AND DESTROY HURT AND PAIN WITH A HEART FELT SECURITY BREECH.I'LL TAKE YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK IF YOU'LL JUST HAVE ME BE...YOUR NOW... YOUR FOREVER... YOUR US... YOUR WE.
i responded to him:
IN RESPONSE TO THE MOST RIDICULOUS PIECE OF MESS I HAVE EVER READ IN MY LIFE:
You want me to vent....here you go. YOU ARE A JOKE!!!!!I have held this shit in for as long as I can, at this point I really don't give a shit if this hurts your feelings or not. Obviously no one has had the nerve enough to let you know what a fuck up you are. Yes I may have been swept up in your "word". And yes, I must have been blindsided by loneliness, but all that shit is out the window at this point. I DON'T GIVE A SHIT if you love me still, you can take yourself to the moon and back, and you can spend all your tommorrows alone for all I care. You don't realize what you are! You don't Avery, and I dont' feel sorry for you anymore, i'm to the point to where i'm just disgusted by your lifestyle. You live your life with this fucked up attitude of "sitting and waiting." What grown man does that?? What example are you setting as a so called man to ALL of your childeren? Your the statistic that they base african american males on...and everyone knows those are some shitty ass statistics. Why would you be proud of that? What glamour is in that? You HATE it when people downplay your masculinity, but why? Its fact...and what I wrote was fact. And everything that every person who read my blog says...is fact. The reason why you feel the need to question why we arent' together is beyond me. I get it though--->" KUDOS TO YOU FOR BEING ALL THAT YOU WERE AND ARE ...YOU ARE WOMAN, A FINE PIECE OF WORK." You damn right....the best that you'll ever get. You chalk this up to the incident that happened last week. Tell me something, why don't you get the fact that that is just the tip of the iceberg. You keep lying to me about that situation....you can say you didn't mean this or that, but I KNOW what went down. AND that doesn't even matter..your right you took me out of character...and you made me do shit that I wouldn't normally do..BUT KNOW THIS.I had you and your not the "BEST I EVER HAD"....not even close. You know how men tell women all the things they want to hear...well checkmate Avery. When I told you the things that I told you about us, it was under pre-tenses that have come to no avail. You have nothing...NOTHING. You say you love me right?? Then why would you feel the need to toot your own horn about making me do things that I would never do?? Bringing me out of character?? What "best and better than most" man you know does that? Don't worry, i'll wait..........didn't think so. Like you said, you have nothing on me bro. You know what a good woman I am. You know that I reached into the depths of my heart for you, all for this shit to play out the way that it did. I take full responsibility for the shit. I should've know not to get involved with you. I thought that I was a stronger woman....and I am because most females...and when I say that I am speaking of true queens of my caliber; people who have an education, have things going for themselves, have their shit together; wouldn't have given your ass a 2nd glance. BUT I DID. And you want to sit up here and try to play me....like I'm fucking willy foo foo or somebody. GET THE HELL OUTTA HERE. " -------YOU THINK YOU HAVE A BETTER JUDGE OF PEOPLE. THAT'S YA GIRL, YOU SPOSE TO TAKE HER SIDE. WHAT IT BOILS DOWN TO IS THAT NONE OF US REALLY KNEW ONE ANOTHER AND WAS MISLEAD. LOWERED STANDARDS ...lol MY ASS""
this doesn't even make since....so i'm not going to even dignify it with an answer. We have been broken up for quite sometime now..so what I do with me, myself, and I is not really of any intrest to you now is it. I could be ugly and tell you that HE is the best I ever had....but that would be below that belt now wouldn't it.
What I posted was something that was meant for you to see...it wasn't done in spite, it wasn't done to "put you on blast" either. Again, everything that I said is FACT. It was done so that you could FINALLY get what I have been trying to tell you for a really long time now. But again, you FAIL to understand that. You continue to try and justify your situation and that is the MAIN reason why you don't need to contact me anymore. Friends we'll never be, lovers is out the window, and this way you can concentrate on what it is that you do...
"The unemployment rate for young African American men is over twice the rate for young white, Hispanic and Asian men (Fig. 3). In addition, fewer African American men between the ages of 16 and 29 are in the labor force compared to white, Hispanic and Asian men in the same age group. Over 20% of young African American men live in poverty compared to 18% of Hispanic..."
Oh and best believe that everyone will see what you have to say...
Thursday, January 24, 2008
MY JOB BLOCKED ME....
So since I'm at work for the majority of the day....it is going to be very hard for me to post. And as much as I love ya'll.....I'm the only one that pays my bills. Its sad for me...but I will keep you updated on my life as much as I can....I will try to post at least twice a week from now on..even if its a teaser. And if I have nothing to do when I get home, I will think about you and post. Love you all tons....I still lurk on your sites...I just can't post:( but your in my heart....promise***walks away with tears in her eyes.....
Saturday, January 05, 2008
A FEW THINGS....
Since my accident, and that really has nothing to do with it, I have had some sort of heightened since of things that either irk me, or have finally started to make sense. Call me crazy, but its true. It's like the dumb ass who didn't stop knocked some sense into my brain, bc I have been too aware these past couple of days...for example:
1.We live in a lazy world....seriously. You would think that places like body shops would be open on Saturdays for the convenience of their clientele. Yeah, about that. The body shop that my insurance company preferred, is open, Mon-Fri from 7am-6pm and CLOSED on Saturday and Sunday. Sunday I get, truly, I do. But Saturday???? I'm so confused....
2. Wild n Out is one of the funniest shows ever. I was up till 5 am watching reruns and I was literally crying laughing in the bed. Nick Cannon may be a corny lil something, but he cracks me up:)
3. I love pain medication....
4. I have a weird infatuation with DJ Quick...weird.
5. Men will be men no matter their status in the world.....and I believe that when you find a good man, bc of the shit that has been placed in your head by previous f-ups, you tend to be a little harder, less compassionate, and more mindful of yourself. Then they say something that makes absolutely no sense, but its the sweetest thing ever...and you forget about being a hard ass. BOO!! I hate emotions sometimes.....
6. Speaking of men...why is it when they realize they f-up, then they want to act right? "I'm sorry for the misguided indiscretion..." ?????? Can someone explain to me how that EVEN makes sense? I'm just saying....stop calling me.
7.As much as I love being around people, I LOVE being alone....
8.I know I just paid off my car, but I secretly want them to total it out so I can get a new one....just do it already.
9.I've lost weight since last April....that's a good thing, and people are starting to take notice.
10. Songs on the radio are dumber than ever...what is a My Dougie??? Anyone?? No...didn't think so?!?!
11. I just realized I'm going to Vegas in 6 days....for the first time ever in life!! I AM ULTRA EXCITED...i need this vacation anyway!!
12. I have some good parents. They have been helping me with so much stuff since the accident happened. Yet they let me remain independent enough to not make me seem like a baby. They are freaking awesome...LOVE THEM.
that's it...just thought y'all should know:)
1.We live in a lazy world....seriously. You would think that places like body shops would be open on Saturdays for the convenience of their clientele. Yeah, about that. The body shop that my insurance company preferred, is open, Mon-Fri from 7am-6pm and CLOSED on Saturday and Sunday. Sunday I get, truly, I do. But Saturday???? I'm so confused....
2. Wild n Out is one of the funniest shows ever. I was up till 5 am watching reruns and I was literally crying laughing in the bed. Nick Cannon may be a corny lil something, but he cracks me up:)
3. I love pain medication....
4. I have a weird infatuation with DJ Quick...weird.
5. Men will be men no matter their status in the world.....and I believe that when you find a good man, bc of the shit that has been placed in your head by previous f-ups, you tend to be a little harder, less compassionate, and more mindful of yourself. Then they say something that makes absolutely no sense, but its the sweetest thing ever...and you forget about being a hard ass. BOO!! I hate emotions sometimes.....
6. Speaking of men...why is it when they realize they f-up, then they want to act right? "I'm sorry for the misguided indiscretion..." ?????? Can someone explain to me how that EVEN makes sense? I'm just saying....stop calling me.
7.As much as I love being around people, I LOVE being alone....
8.I know I just paid off my car, but I secretly want them to total it out so I can get a new one....just do it already.
9.I've lost weight since last April....that's a good thing, and people are starting to take notice.
10. Songs on the radio are dumber than ever...what is a My Dougie??? Anyone?? No...didn't think so?!?!
11. I just realized I'm going to Vegas in 6 days....for the first time ever in life!! I AM ULTRA EXCITED...i need this vacation anyway!!
12. I have some good parents. They have been helping me with so much stuff since the accident happened. Yet they let me remain independent enough to not make me seem like a baby. They are freaking awesome...LOVE THEM.
that's it...just thought y'all should know:)
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