This song relaxes me....
I think that I am in a funk right now.
~I'm irritaed at the slightest things...
~Me need a nap....
~My alternator is going out..I
~I hate how much labor they charge at places...your not giving me a new car..your replacing a part.
~I need to get my haircut, but I keep procrastinating.
~I love my roomate..she's freaking awesome! Makes me laugh..till I cry.
~Not dating Chicago anymore..it just wasn't there.
~But I am dating..let you know if I stumble across something. Even though I hate dating in Dallas...
~Haven't been posting as much, bc I've been so busy at work. BOO!
~New shift just came out..so hopefully that helps...school and stuff.
~It's really mild this summer here in Dallas...can't complain. Too much rain though.
~I don't think I like myspace anymore...I dunno yet.
~I'm into dresses right now..wearing a really cute one right now that I keep getting compliments on. YAY!
~I need my ego pumped alot lately...whats wrong with me!
~This is random...
Be easy ya'll!
Friday, July 20, 2007
J. Holiday
Monday, July 09, 2007
KEEP IT REAL WITH ME
I know my lack of posting is pissing some people off(J), but I apologize...nothing exciting is going on in my life right now. So i'm going to post, but you may be like, she really is bored=)
I don't know if ya'll remember, but I told ya'll that I was starting to date this dude from Chicago?? Well, it's been about 7 months now....and I got nothing. We've been kicking it real strong, and I thought there was something....wait. Let me give you some background.....
We had a talk around Feb about how he wasn't looking for a relationship....I started to catch feelings, but he checked that shit at the door. No big deal, I would just leave it alone. But bruh kept calling, inviting me places, making me dinner. Basically he was sending some really messed up signals.....trying to get in my pants was what I chalked it up to. (Which he succeeded in, bc he makes a wonderful pasta puttanesca. It was 3 months in...ya girl had an itch) Anyway.....even after that though, he seemed really interested. He never stopped calling, he always made sure I was comfortable. He made me laugh...he cracked me up...but he wasn't sensitive to my needs. When I say that, I mean he isn't aggressive. He doesn't "go" for it.....he never holds my hand, he doesn't move in to kiss me...he doesn't hold me unless I put his hands there. I had to teach him how to NOT give half ass hugs.....it's like he doesn't know what to do to seduce or intrigue a woman. Physically. Now don't get it twisted...."it" was good. It's just that besides those moments, there are very rare instances where we are romantic. And that is what is killing it for me.....I am a a very passionate person, and when I am in a relationship, I need to know that you are feeling me. Whether it be through the universal language of touch, or the old fashion way by telling me. But this brotha is missing that link in his head. And I can't do it anymore. We went to the movies last night, which PS. Transformers is my new FAV movie. It was soooooooooo good! But he called and invited me....he paid, he treated, and he invited me back up to his apartment afterwards....we had a drink...we joked, laughed, talked about current events. He put in a movie, we lay together....and that's it...when I say lay together, I really mean I was on one end of the couch, he was on the other. It was 2am.....there was not one drop of passion in the air. He wanted me to stay the night, I told him no. He pleaded with me for about 2 min....then walked me to my car. DIDN'T EVEN KISS ME GOODNIGHT YA'LL. If those aren't mixed signals....I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I do know that I can't hold his hand through this anymore....I've given you plenty of opportunities to step up and take the reins in this...but you didn't take those, so at this point....I'm done. Keep it real with me....don't play these games. I am too old for that mess. If you only like me as a friend, say so. It's been 7 months! And it's not like he been getting his hand in the cookie jar on a regular....so it's not that. Am I wrong for being that way? What's ya'll's outlook on the situation.....I'm open, so lets go.
I don't know if ya'll remember, but I told ya'll that I was starting to date this dude from Chicago?? Well, it's been about 7 months now....and I got nothing. We've been kicking it real strong, and I thought there was something....wait. Let me give you some background.....
We had a talk around Feb about how he wasn't looking for a relationship....I started to catch feelings, but he checked that shit at the door. No big deal, I would just leave it alone. But bruh kept calling, inviting me places, making me dinner. Basically he was sending some really messed up signals.....trying to get in my pants was what I chalked it up to. (Which he succeeded in, bc he makes a wonderful pasta puttanesca. It was 3 months in...ya girl had an itch) Anyway.....even after that though, he seemed really interested. He never stopped calling, he always made sure I was comfortable. He made me laugh...he cracked me up...but he wasn't sensitive to my needs. When I say that, I mean he isn't aggressive. He doesn't "go" for it.....he never holds my hand, he doesn't move in to kiss me...he doesn't hold me unless I put his hands there. I had to teach him how to NOT give half ass hugs.....it's like he doesn't know what to do to seduce or intrigue a woman. Physically. Now don't get it twisted...."it" was good. It's just that besides those moments, there are very rare instances where we are romantic. And that is what is killing it for me.....I am a a very passionate person, and when I am in a relationship, I need to know that you are feeling me. Whether it be through the universal language of touch, or the old fashion way by telling me. But this brotha is missing that link in his head. And I can't do it anymore. We went to the movies last night, which PS. Transformers is my new FAV movie. It was soooooooooo good! But he called and invited me....he paid, he treated, and he invited me back up to his apartment afterwards....we had a drink...we joked, laughed, talked about current events. He put in a movie, we lay together....and that's it...when I say lay together, I really mean I was on one end of the couch, he was on the other. It was 2am.....there was not one drop of passion in the air. He wanted me to stay the night, I told him no. He pleaded with me for about 2 min....then walked me to my car. DIDN'T EVEN KISS ME GOODNIGHT YA'LL. If those aren't mixed signals....I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I do know that I can't hold his hand through this anymore....I've given you plenty of opportunities to step up and take the reins in this...but you didn't take those, so at this point....I'm done. Keep it real with me....don't play these games. I am too old for that mess. If you only like me as a friend, say so. It's been 7 months! And it's not like he been getting his hand in the cookie jar on a regular....so it's not that. Am I wrong for being that way? What's ya'll's outlook on the situation.....I'm open, so lets go.
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